My heart is broken because my mother won’t speak to me. I keep having terrible dreams of her ridding me from her life. Her last words to me were not pleasant and although I’d like to call her, I feel like my call would go ignored. In fact in our last conversation she requested that I not call her. Did she mean it? I love her but she breaks my heart.
I’m trying to seek joy in my life and it seems when I finally find it in one area, another goes to the crapper.
I haven’t been going to church. I pray less frequently. I know I am missing Him. How do I get back? I have a lot of CD’s.. maybe I should start there?
I dyed my hair darker today. I like it. I also love my boyfriend. I don’t know where I would be without him right now.
6 months ago